this is the world i created for myself...

lately i've been noticing far too many people dwelling on the bad things in life. bad things they don't have to worry about

i don't understand how the human body can handle so much stress from focusing on these stupid little things. i know that i'd much rather be happy than worrying about something bad, like what some one said about you, some guy that cut you off when you were driving, what you don't like about myspace, and so on.

and i don't know why anyone would want to be around some one like that. i have some one in my life who's always focusing on the little things and i know that i can't stand being around them when they do that.

another thing i dont' understand is people constantly fighting. i know i tend to fight a lot but a lot of it is standing up for my friends. and when i fight on buzznet i feel bleh, and sometimes i tend to feel a little bad. so i don't know how people do it all the time. or when they do focus so much on it.  whats even worse is when people go out and look for fights. or they post something to start a fight that is in their favor and they look like the better or smarter or whatever person.

i just don't understand any of it. its stupid. its giving you more stress than you need. and you can tell yourself it doesn't phase you all day. but your heart will be screaming at you later in life.

seriously. being optimistic is so much more amazing than beating some one in an internat brawl. and i can guarantee you this; being able to see the bright side of everything will lead you to have a better quality life and you'll probably be more confident in who you are.

the next nice sunny day you have in your neighborhood, take a walk. in the park, in your backyard, where ever, and just think about everything thats great in life. sit there and listen to the birds chirp. hearing another species being happy should make you happy. being able to feel the sun and sit in its rays should feel amazing; that you've been able to manage another day and see the sun shine.

shrug off the bad stuff and BE HAPPY already !  (:

so bascially i decided that since i'm always having weird creepy dreams and whatnot. i'll write a journal of what happened. so here we go (:

there were a slect few students from my school going to a field trip at the nearby hospital. the only good part was talking to olivia before about hair and what kind of wavy and curly styles we like. since she wasn't able to completely straighten her hair, so it was wavy. then we were in this room with a few beds in it. and there were a bunch of african kids and we were learning about them and their sicknesses. they were puking and shitting everywhere. ariel got off the bed and managed to get some of the shit on one of my favorite hoodies so that was a hardcore bummer. then i couldn't handle it anymore so i went to this room where your supposed to say what you learned for a grade. and as i was telling the guy i looked around to see a bunch of elderly people sitting in hospital beds. then i saw one and his head went down. i looked away in fear that he might have been dying and i didn't want to see. but i still payed close attention to the sound of the heartbeat counter thingy. his heart was slowly stopping and i could hear every second of it. and as i hear his heartbeat flatline this woman comes in with a newborn baby enjoying the new world and the daylight. then i woke up not knowing what to do with myself and being depressed as hell. and i mean literally depressed. not what the kids that don't know the meaning say.

so i'm not sure what that means; the fact that i witnessed a person dying but shortly after a new baby coming into the world with every possibility to make this world a better place. but i have a feeling it might be good. kind of like a rebirth. which is scary and so exciting at the same time (:

and to not leave you with such a heavy sad feeling. here's a little fun fact; i've been wearing knee-high socks all day and since i haven't shaved my legs in a few days my leg hairs are hurting xD

i'm really hoping that barack obama wins the election. hilary clinton strikes me as being a power hungry woman thats one of those mean catty secretary kinda ladies.

obama takes all attacks on him as maturely as possible which i admire quite a bit. and ! he doesn't force his religion on everyone. he accepts everyone for their opinions and choices and doesn't tell them they're wrong. which makes me verrrryyy happy.

the only reason i would be reluctant to see him on office is because people are so stupid and immature that i'm sure some one would try to kill him just because he's a black man. or his name sounds like an indian's. my friend was going on and on about how his mom or grandmother or something lives in some shitty house or some hut, and thats why he doesn't want people voting for barack. because he doesn't wanna say that our president's mother lives in a hut. its annoying how narrow-minded people are.

i could go on but i'm in desperate need to blow my nose. sinus infections aren't fun. >.-

BARACK THE VOTE !!