this is the world i created for myself...

sometimes i lose my mind.
i see pictures of girl posing suggestively
and i see all the guys saying that they're the prettiest girls ever.
and stuff like that.
so i think about maybe doing it.

but thankfully i realize that i don't need some guy telling me that i'm beautiful
and i don't need to disrepect myself and my parents just to get someone to say that i'm beautiful when really they just want to have sex and be done.

because i know not to do that and i respect my natural beauty
makes me beautiful
and the same goes for everyone else.

i know so many beautiful girls. and they don't need to take clothes off to be beautiful. just their personalities and confidence make them beautiful.

honestly.
who would you rather go out with ?
someone who will love you for what you are, your personality, loyalty, and having fun when they're with you.
or someone who just likes what you do in bed and you don't really mean much to them. 

i know i'd choose the first one.


i'm so tired of these girls
especially ones that are younger than me

i just want to slap them

-_-

give it some thought.

i'ev had enough of seeing more skin than clothes in a picture.

or seeing people laying on their beds or something suggestive.

your young. you don't need to be exploiting yourself.

xD zac is hilarious.

he's excited about being 18 because he can now legally smoke ciggarettes, buy porn, and go to stripclubs xD i can't stop laughing.

a section of bryan and i's conversation about all of this.

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chemmyCY4N!D3: i wouldn't know
thetsex: he would
thetsex: .....and will
chemmyCY4N!D3: nto like he'll be having sex with anyone anyway
* towallace joined the room.
chemmyCY4N!D3: ..or will he o.O
chemmyCY4N!D3: hmmm xD
thetsex: no
thetsex: its zac
* towallace left the room.
thetsex: he will sit in his room and turn up tool really loud and beat it
chemmyCY4N!D3: your so nice [x
thetsex: i try'
* elise FUCKING idol. left the room.
thetsex: ha ha
chemmyCY4N!D3: that got me laughing hardcore xD
thetsex: dont gimme that look
chemmyCY4N!D3: i'm not looking at you
chemmyCY4N!D3: so in your faceee !
thetsex: you are
thetsex: lookin at my ass
thetsex: cuz im mooning you!
chemmyCY4N!D3: never
chemmyCY4N!D3: sorry
thetsex: oh you already did
chemmyCY4N!D3: no sorry
thetsex: luke told me all about it
chemmyCY4N!D3: sureee
thetsex: its ok
thetsex: you can admit it'
chemmyCY4N!D3: are you sure i wasn't looking at zac beating it to tool xD
thetsex: ha ha
thetsex: is that why your fingers are by your mouth
chemmyCY4N!D3: that was probably one of the funniest things you've said
chemmyCY4N!D3: oh yeah most deffinatly
thetsex: thats such a fetish
chemmyCY4N!D3: totally
thetsex: he will go tanning to impress the ladies from "anal fantasies 13"
chemmyCY4N!D3: xD xD
thetsex: he likes his womens
thetsex: with a big gaping swollen ass
chemmyCY4N!D3: he'll have blue balls !
thetsex: oh he wont. he will beat it out
chemmyCY4N!D3: hah
chemmyCY4N!D3: so he's got like, a super penis or something xD
thetsex: or alot of stamina
chemmyCY4N!D3: or that
chemmyCY4N!D3: at least i was giving him some credit
thetsex: he dosent practice black metal for nothing
thetsex: fast hands
thetsex: fast hands
chemmyCY4N!D3: hahaa. oh shit.
chemmyCY4N!D3: he likes it roughhh
thetsex: dude andrew had to trim his beard because the purple wouldnt come out
thetsex: ha ha
chemmyCY4N!D3: xD
thetsex: i bet his fantisy is pregnant women
thetsex: he makes the baby kick!
chemmyCY4N!D3: i'm confused >.<
thetsex: how
thetsex: zac likes pregos
chemmyCY4N!D3: ohh
chemmyCY4N!D3: i thought you were talkign abotu andrew
thetsex: oh my bad
chemmyCY4N!D3: hahaaha. oh yes. i'm sure he dreams about fucking pregnant women all day
chemmyCY4N!D3: although i feel bad for the fetuses xD
thetsex: zac is crazy
thetsex: he is a freak
chemmyCY4N!D3: i wouldn't know
thetsex: f-r-e-a-k
chemmyCY4N!D3: tell me why you believe this.
chemmyCY4N!D3: because if he's more of a freak than me..then he's hardcoreee freak xD
thetsex: because he is pale and likes prego porn. his dick will never have skin again
chemmyCY4N!D3: bye
thetsex: ha ha!
chemmyCY4N!D3: xD
chemmyCY4N!D3: wowwww
thetsex: that was nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chemmyCY4N!D3: its bad enough you thought that up
thetsex: that was so funny
chemmyCY4N!D3: that was hilarious

hey ! i was being nice and giving him credit. bryan's the meanie here xD

hey girls ! [some parts can go for guys too]

put some clothes on =D
no one wants to see your nasty boobs popping out.
or those chunky thighs clapping.

we don't need to see you bending over
you can do that when your old enough.
and in the privacy of your own home.

with someone that really loves you for you. not how flexible you can be or how loud you can moan.

close your legs. having them wide open isn't attractive at all.
we don't want anything to do with your nasty [soon to be infected] genitals

stop saying stupid things like oh my god date me ?! i'll suck your dick.
or i was so drunk that night and we got high.
ahahah. how cool are we !

its annoying.
pointless.
and if someone with authority were to see, you could be put in jail/juvy.

why look back on your life and have memories of being a teenage wreck ?

please.
self respect is a beautiful thing.
where's yours ?

so.

jami wants this girl to play where he dwells

and you need a bunch of demands to get her there

so basically.

click the link

and click the yellow buton that says demand.

and do it every day.

=D

go ! go ! go !

gracias.

something that i just wrote. i guess you could call it a free-verse poem. whatevs.

enjoy it ! =D

who i'd like to meet:

someone who will watch the whole season of the twilight zone with me

someone who thinks i look better in pajamas and a hoodie than any dress made

someone who will catch and name fireflies with me.

someone who will sing at the top of their lungs to my favorite song with me, even if they can't sing.

someone that will never judge me.

someone who will dance with me, even when there's no music.

someone who doesn't care that my makeup is smeared and my hair looks like shit.

someone who will follow me on every adventure

someone who lead the way in the dark.

someone who will color with me

someone who will stay up late, and then fall asleep with me.

someone who will message me saying 'i can be your someone'

alright.

i just wrote this. meaning:

if i see this is anyone's myspace. i'll freak out on you.

you can ask to use it..but if i say no. deal with it and move on with your life.

tell me what you think of it ^-^