this is the world i created for myself...

if we've got people like this that are going to be in charge.

so i get onto my myspace super quick since i was helping amelia out and whatnot [she got sick from her silicon guages]  and i have new messages.

"Dear Ms. Pathetic self absorbed bitch :] aka chelsea,

iv'e just got some things i wanna get out about you. lol. well 1st off... i hate how you believe that you are a "Scene Kid" and Sit there and say how you hate people that try to be one. When you are One of them yourself. you Believe you are the best thing to walk the Earth, when your not. your so fucking Egotistical it sickens me. You talk behind Not only one people you barley know backs, but your good friends as well.And afterwards act all nice to them and act liek they're your bestest friend in the whole wide world. you are such a conniving Bitch. and you post bulletins NONstop on myspace like people actually care about what goes on in your life. hahaha, when you need to realize hun, that nobody cares. :] haha. you talk about how people arn't pretty...? hahaha you so arrogant its not funny. look at yourself hunnn :DD your not the greatest in the world either.and your photography isn't so damn good ethier. x] pretty plain and boring if you ask me. you believe its wonderful cause you go to New york and shit. when its only because your daddy gets it in there for you cause you have money.. it doesnt mean your good. infact your pretty sucky lol anyone can take pics. its a matter of doing it well tho. and you cant do that. so stop being so god damn full of yourself you cocky cunt. and grow up and get a life. :] K? thank you.

love always "

from who knows xD

so anyway. i don't take shit from people. but i don't stoop to their level.

this is what i said back

"xD ahaha.

thank you for making my night.
seriously.
i loved that.

so wait, let me ask, am i scene kid because i have stripes in my hair !
thats probably it.

oh if you only you actually knew me.

but honestly.
i'll stop wasting my time with people like you.

if you hate me so much.
then leave me alone.
its that simple.
try your best to understand
^-^ "

then 'pineapple bitch' as andrew and i call her says this.

"hahah yeah wel im glad i made your night.
you gonna go post another bulletin about this :D? haha.
im sure you will. cause you think people care about what you have to say

and i do leave you alone.
you're always Commenting me saying how pretty i am
lol. and it annoys the shit out of me.
you tell your little "friends" you tihnk im a bitch
and you dont like me.
and then go an comment my pics?
hahaha trying to fit in much?
x]
fucking loser. "

and this was the last thing i sent, since pineapple bitch is too much of a pussy to stay on and 'talk this out'

"
actually.
i'm not gonna post a bulletin about this.
hah.
too bad for you.

oh yes.
i'm totally trying to fit in to what ever scene is going on.

and please.
get a life or a brain.
making a new account just to send this to me ?
thats fucking pathetic.

if you don't want to be my friend.
then don't bother.

use common sense. "

alright. now this would be perfectly fine if i knew who was sending these !

someone actually went and made another account just to send me that message because they have no balls at allll. 

and what makes it even worse..this was over the fucking internet. ughhh

i'm so tired of people starting shit with me over the internet. honestly.

we're all big boys and girls. why not act like it.

whatevs.

this made me laugh a bunch.

now off to living my lovely life.

1) Don't get so drunk that you fall backwards into me and nearly spill both of your beers on my camera.

2) Don't get grabby with people who aren't in the mood to reciprocate.

3) Even if you're feeling like a Debbie Downer, don't get annoyed with people who're having a good time and aren't actually annoying.

4) Possibly most importantly, do not throw shit at the performers, lest you incur their wrath and they punch you in the face.

Number 4 is exactly what happened to Jeffree Star last night at the Pride South Stage...

I'd noticed a few things like water bottles and red bull cans flying onto the stage from the crowd. At first I thought it might've been someone's underwear or something, because seriously, who the hell throws full water bottles at a performer?

Assholes do. Silly me, should've known.

Jeffree Star has many, many fans. but, like the Howard Sterns of the world he also has a great many detractors. Whether it be because he dresses differently, sings songs about fucking straight guys, or because he's just really popular, some people will just search for excuses to hate him and other people like him.

Why this would be an issue at one of the premiere GLBT Pride festivals in North America, I don't know. It's the last place something like what happened to Star should ever happen. Pride is about a great many things to a great many people. For me, it's about everyone, no matter how they're dressed, how they act, or what "equipment" they have being everyone else's equal, and then celebrating that absolute fact.

If you throw shit at a performer at Pride, you deserve to have either your nuts or ovaries torn out and set on fire. The next best thing is to have your face punched in, which is exactly what Jeffree Star did when he finished his set. As it was ending, yet another piece of crap got chucked at him. One of his dancers pointed out who it was and Star flew like fucking Superman over the crowd railing and punched the chick who did it in the face.

Yup, Jeffree Star punched a woman. If I was in his position, I'd have done the same thing. There's absolutely no excuse for what she was doing, and what she got wasn't even enough of a payback. MuchMusic videographer Barb Milner told me it was "the most 'punk' thing [she'd] seen in years."

And even after all that, Jeffree Star stuck around to sign autographs for his fans, where a lot of other performers would've stormed off in a huff and told their managers to go fuck Toronto. Like him, hate him, or just be indifferent about him, he's a class act all around. He'll be performing again at the Alexander Parkette "Alterna-Queer" Stage at 6:00 pm tonight, June 24.

credit: blogTO.  http://blogto.com/music/2007/06/dont_eff_with_jeffree_star/

go there ^ for the article.

ahah. i'm glad jeffree punched that girl.

no one deserves to get hit with a full glass bottle of water. especially not jeffree.

this is gay pride, and if you don't have pride or respect for gay people. then simply don't go.

people are so fucking stupid these days.

wow.

so many people are losing my respect.

they've changed.

like giving their brains away to the scene.

the scene skanks took her. and turned her into one of the mindless trend following zombies.

she's going to lose all of her REAL friends.

why doesn't she realize this ? her actions do affect other people

and other people have been getting hurt from what she's done.

she's just so fake now.

i don't think i can be friends with her anymore.

she's broken her promises one too many times.

i won't even get started on him. he changed too much too quickly and i don't like it.

hanging out with andrew was tons of fun.

i love that kid [x he's so awesome

what i loved was when he was looking at how long my nails are

and then he said  'you should talk to zac'  [since zac has long nails too ^-^ ]

[x i know its little, and stupid. but it made me happy.

we talked about zac twice that night.

and both times were amazing.

i love learning more about him.

aha. i need to shut up. i feel like one of those girls on disney channel shows that gte all giddy and excited about a boy. ugh.

birthday saturday. newark. then maybe border's. hopefully getting my hoodie. then oliva garden. then the following friday i'm going to the mall with elise and buying numerous amount of bras and underwear.

just to give the people that work there something to laugh about.

then the next weekend the show !!

oh dear god i hope zac goes

^-^  most likey he'll be hanging out with andrew. and since andrew is my best friend

i'll end up hanging out with zac. and zac and i will be closer and hopefully something more will happen.

=D =D

alright. this journal is long enough.

goodnight <3 !

wanna know whats stupid ?

when girls go out with assholes.

[knowing that the guy is a piece of shit]

and they expect them to be the best boyfriend ever.
and then when the guy goes and does somethingbad to the girl,
the girl is all surpised and like oh my god
how could he do that ?!?!

so then they do the whole breaking up thing.
and the asshole gets another girl to manipulate.
and the pervious girl starts moping and saying how she wants him back so badly and blah blah blah.


i don't understand it
why even go out with a shitty guy in the first place ?
even better, wanting to back out with them ?

stupidstupidstupid.
girls need to find good guys.
that way they don't get hurt.                                                                                                               its not that hard honestly.

just because a guy is a sweet talker, doesn't mean his plan is sweet.

oh and.  most guys you meet over the internet just want someone to talk dirty to them.

honestly, there's no point in trying to find someone to date over the internet.

the loyalty just isn't there. and we all know it.

on a brighter note.

zac made another myspace =D !

this makes me happy.

and he posts the funniest pictures [x

i love it.

baby can you play with fire ?

this is to everyone that i made a promise with to be friends no matter what school we go to.

or what happens in our lives.

fuck you.

i hope you have fun with your new friends. and your whores for girlfriends.

i'll just fucking move on too.

and leave you in the dust. just like you did me.

i hope you have fun with your new best friends. and your fucking 'crew'

i hope you remember me when they all die from their overdoses. or when they get into a car accident.

then you'll be saying 'oh yeah. and chelsea too'

i'll live a fucking fantastic life.

touring with bryan, andrew, andy, bob, and dustin.

i'll have a wonderful live with zac.

because i took the time to find a genuine guy

and get to know him before i 'fall truely and deeply in love' with him.

and we'll have a lovely family. we won't love each other through the internet. and TALK about having a family sometime in the future. WE WILL.

zac and i will love a perfect life. while your still trying to find someone on the internet.

and then you'll remember me and just say

'oh yeah..and chelsea too'

i hope you have a fucking peachy time right now.

your life won't be peachy. just watch.

and for you

mister i'm just gonna tell chelsea i love her and get whatever i want from her

then find a whore who will guarantee sex for me and leave chelsea without even telling her.

a big old fuck you to you too buddy.

i'm not letting you get shit from two girls at one time.

whatever happened to respecting women..HAH !!

respect my ass.

oh and by the way. thanks for making my end of the summer and beginning of the new school year complete and total SHIT for me.

i really appreciate it.

i hope you two have sex. she'll get pregnant. you'll contract one of her many std's .

you'll be forced to get married. and you'll realize that you don't even love her.

but your stuck with her !!!

hah. that'd be a fuck you from my good friend named karma

that'll teach you to screw people over.

i guess i really don't need you guys.

if your going to do shit like that.

i'll find TRUE friends.

i'll do just fine without you.

thank you.

for those that read all the way down to here.

thank you.

you are a true friend.

now leave a comment

and i'll give you a cyber hug

[x