this is the world i created for myself...

looking back on all of the i guess i'll say "occurances" with zac.

my head is spinning.

x]

its so amazing to be in love and have everything going perfectly.

i was at the mall and this hot guy was deffinatly checking me out.

and then when we were leaving he tried talking to me

awwwww x]

my sister and my mom pissed me off though.

there were no fours so i got twos. because my sister said i'd be fine.

so amelia's looking at sunglasses while i'm shoving this huge thing in my ear. and it won't go any farther and its really hurting and almost bled.

and my mom is just standing there. telling amelia what sunglasses look like nicole richie's or not.

then when my mom went to get her cartlidge pierced i was so excited to see her get it done.

but no. amelia runs back into the room so i'm outside looking at nothing. doing nothing. and having nothing to do.

i guess i'll stop looking forward to things.

there's only one thing i know i can look forward to and not be let down.

and thats seeing zac =D

i write so much about zac.

i love him. ^-^

wow.

i do something really nice for my mom for her present for mother's day

and then when i'm on the phone with her she's all bitchy and annoying.

thanks mom. maybe i'll just keep what i made you.

aghh my god

that the hell was jacob thinking when he asked me to have sex with him.

and his stupid theory ? what ?

i barely even know the kid.

he's got some fucking balls to say that.

blahh.

bryan has been annoying lately.

and stupid me said i'd go to his show early to hang out with him. i shouldn't have said that. because last time we hung out was like torture. i need to stop being so nice.

at least i get to see brittany my boo. i haven't seen her since like third grade.

man i can't wait.

so everyone's bodies are 90% water right.

i have a strong feeling that my body is composed of 90% vitaminwater

no lie. d00d.

ahhh. andrew. man that kid is amazing. i feel a best friendship coming on. which makes me excited. it might make me closer to zac. which woudl work out well.

and if it doesn't, oh well. i'll work on that on my own.

i'm just glad that andrew and i are starting to become really good friends.

ugh. why is kent going out with maygen. everyone knows she's a nasty dirty whore. who's only in the seventh grade !! fucking pedophile.

eeeeep !!

zac was wearing his glasses again. x] i love when he wears his glasses. and he wore all black today. he hasn't done that in a while. as much as i love that tie dye shirt. i think i love black on him best. it just compliments his hair so perfectly. seeing as he is perfect.

i always catch him staring at me or smiling when he sees me. thats a good sign right ?

oh i sure hope so.

i don't need you anymore. you've taught me wrong from right. who i need in my life and who will make my life worse.

so get out of my life. its amazing. and your not.

your dead to me

"right now your the only reason i'm not letting go oh."

paramore knows me too well.

i've been so addicted to their two new songs.

i've been drawing things about the songs and cd during class. its crazy.

"we were born for this"

i need to listen to that when i'm playing tennis.

i can't wait for riot!

weee sooooo.

i saw zac three times today.

which makes me happy

i noticed he was staring at me. he tends to do that a lot.

maybe my friends are right. maybe he does like me.

oh man i hope so. he's so amazing i can't even put it into words.

but i feel so bad for billy.

he told me that he's truthfully in love with me.

but i love zac.

agh man. this is crazy.

i hate hurting billy's feelings. =/

i'm not going to the jeffree star concert.

man. i was so excited. i was finally gonna be able to jeffre star in all of his amazing-ness.

but now i can't.

i actually cried. i wanted to see him so badly.

geez.

it seems like every bulletin i post on myspace andrew replies to.

idk. if things weren't to work out with zac

i totally wouldn't mind going out with andrew. i don't care if he looks weird.

he's so much fun and he's really smart.

whatever happened to russ. ugh. i wish he would stop smoking.

i really care about that kid.

i hope i'm able to see him in person.

these sunny days are amazing.

they're making me want to do my homework early.

and be outside.

and exercise like crazy !

i love it. i need to hit the tennis courts. maybe next weekend i'll see if jessica wants to go. we'll have our chex mix and shrimp meal. she brings the shrimp. i bring two bags of chex mix.

man i miss tennis with her. she's so awesome.

i can't wait for the fair.

i miss those times with stephanie. except i don't miss the fact that jp told me how he loved me so much and that i'm the only girl on his mind and shit. then when i was with my friend [at a party] we saw him making out with a girl he met like the day before. ugh.

well thats not happening this time. i'm not letting any boy hurt me so much. i can't believe i let him do that. i guess its because i actually loved him. ugh. stupid trashley. fucking whore.

back to something i love to think about.

zac looked so gorgeous today.

with his tie dye shirt and his glasses. that went perfectly with his long wavy black hair.

ohmygawsh he's just so perfect.

i still think the only reason why he wears that tie dye shirt so much is because i complimented him on it that one day. x]

i love tie dye shirts.

..i think too much.

everyone knows and loves jami [roflcopter] lets list all the reasons why we love him!!

1. he's the only person who can type horribly and i don't get pissed off

2. he has the cutest voice and laugh i've ever heard

3.he takes some of the coolest pictures ever

4. he's got a lot of common sense

5. he honestly don't care what people think about him

6. he's  the only other person i know that is cool and plays tennis

7. he's always got the coolest hair

8. the picture of him in his room says it all

9. he's as obssesed with his cat as i am

10. his witty sense of humor x]

11. he's married to the easter bunny ^-^

12. he's not like anyone else

13. i don't think i'll ever be able to find anyone else like him

14. he can read all my typos

15. he's not afraid to speak his mind

16. he's the cutest computer nerd you'll ever find

17. his favorite video is candy mountain!

18. he understands my  love of old people

19. he's got major pwning powers

20. he's got a cute little baby face x]

21. he posts the most random and meaningless bulletins. yet without them we would find ourselves lost without them ^-^

22. the only way you could hate him is if your a teeny bopper or audrey bitching x]

23. he'll do anything for his friends

24. he's been through the worst shit ever and he's still the happiest person ever.

25. i'd say he's the brightest crayon in the box xD

26. he pwns you with his dance moves

27. when we sue judges [for only 20 dollars] we always win. because jami uses his charm on the judge, and no one can resist

28. he's one of those little kids that hang out with kids in highschool. thats how amazing he is

29. in fact, i'm convinced he's a little kid trapped inside a big boy's body x]

30. THE WORLD WOULD BE NOTHING WITHOUT JAMI !! srsly.

31. he understands how awesome napoleon dynamite it

32. he's always ready for a dance party!

33. he listens to the coolest music

34. he's one of the nicest kids you'll ever wish to meet

35. how could you not love someone as cute as him x]

36. his undying love for brian peppers

37. he cares about how people are in the  inside. because he knows thats what really matters

38. he can use big words correctly

39. he can get rid of any faker before bedtime x]

40. he wins at life !!

41. he's got the cutest little baby face

42. he masters online sarcasm

43. his body is too bootylicious for ya. x]

44. he's not some stupid crazy panic and the disco/brendon urie obsessed fan. he's knows the truth about all of them [and he doesn't need to know them on a personal level to realize it. anyone would know]

45. you can talk to him for hours and neve get bored.

46. his internet hugz are amazing.

47. he gives the best advice ever.

48. he has a big butt that everyone is jealous of

49. he makes annoying little lambs look cool.

50. he can pwn audrey bitching's ass mutiliple times without even breaking a sweat.

51. even when life is being completely shitty he can make me the happiest person ever

52. he's got the best imagination ever !

53. there's no possible way to hate him..unless your stupid [x

54. he makes you happy just talking to him.

55. he's not afraid to be himself. or stand up for what he believes in

56. did i mention that he's super smart ?

i'll be adding more. oh trust me. i'll be adding a lot more.